a not-so-hateful post LOL

it sucks to be in the middle… it’s a hard and tedious way of splitting yourself into two… but neither parties try to make me come over their side… thank god for that.. knowing 2 sides of the story can be really confusing because their minds are NOT going in the same direction… and hence i am here trying to figure out why the hell everybody’s acting this way…

i do admit i was really really upset with all the hate posts… but i’m not blaming you guys for publishing your anger… hehe.. i do that too.. well, sometimes… ok!! most of the time… LOL… but one specific reply stuck to my head which broke my heart into a million pieces and i felt i was backstabbed and pierced through the heart a million times

well here’s why..

  1. we did have a talk and hoped that you understand
  2. im still pissed, sad and depressed of what you told me
  3. i was envious on how you were easily forgiven…

but anyway… sometimes you say the right things and sometimes what you say can hurt… but im not complaining… at least we’re still there for each other when the time/need arises…

anyway, my personal replies:

to the first blogger: i love how you care for the block.. but seriously, when i read the first part of your blog, i thought you were pertaining to another person… sorry for being slow.. eeeeep… and while i was reading it, i can hear your voice narrating in the background!!! wahahahaha… define napakaganda ng imagination ko… and you were really harsh about this which makes me think that you hated the person from the beginning… and which i think is a right guess… and i just need to verify the “why” part… ohohohohoho!!

to the person who was linked by the first blogger: harsh.. fierce.. burning.. too committed to bestfriend which is admirable.. hehe.. now i’m curious as to how the person explained those things to you guys and why you’re all acting this way.. i’m supposed to be there too you know.. hehe.. but i’m glad that you’ve calmed down now.. i kind of noticed your irritation towards the person while we were eating lunch, remember? hehehe.. and i am kind of afraid that you guys will hate on me too just because i still choose to be a friend of that person.. i’m happy that you still let me be a friend of that person… but you used to be a friend of that person and i dunno why you’re mad.. hehehe… i have this thought in my mind that what that person did was at least directed towards you.. if it was told to anyone else outside, omgeee (ok, sorry.. promise last na talaga toh… define inggitera na ba ko?? T__T)..

to the person they’re hating on: hi friend!! LOL.. ok ka pa ba?? ikaw kasi, inggitera ka rin.. hahahaha.. wag mo muna sirain buhay mo… helptd you naman! hahaha.. anyways, since tapos na naman ang issue na toh, it’s probably hard for them to take you back again since what you did really upset them which is understandable but their emotions are weirdly strong.. which still brings me back to the point that it’s not the first time they hated you.. awch, harsh.. T—T but anyways, i still believe you’re a nice person.. a little bit weird but just enough to make me sane in this insanely world of ours.. and i still think you’re one of the few persons who knows me well.. so i can’t let go of you yet.. hehehe.. and of course it’s also since the other person who supposedly knows me well already became a person whom another person knows him well.. jealous much? but it’s ok, i still have u and my bespernd.. plus i have my significant person now and let’s hide him under the name xchn (eeep, me and my poor naming skills.. and he doesn’t know what i’ll tell him later! nyahaha)..

to the person who supposedly knows me well: bonus lang.. hehe.. i didn’t know you were sad and depressed which makes me go back to the point that you don’t tell me stuff anymore.. plus.. didn’t you realize i was supposed to be there too.. i know you’re not mad at what happened but i for once thought that you will use our contract.. but you did not.. which is fine by me.. but a bit disappointing.. and i do admit that (word vomit alert!) i was pissed and hurt that you didn’t tell me that you told someone else about the same time as when you told me which brings me to the point on how you may not really consider me as your closest friend and i feel as if u just used the contract to keep my lips sealed.. (end of word vomit).. hahaha.. me and my mood swings.. sorry… pero ok na ngeon.. hehehe… ^-^

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define ngeon ko lang xa ipupublish… LOL… this was so yesterday but nvrmnd… kunwari pre-Valentine’s day post… wahahahaha… kasi late ko na rin naman nabasa ung mga posts.. hehe.. define outdated na kasi ako… wahahahaha…. luv u friends!! sana wala away-away.. tampuhan ok lang.. hehehehe..

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4 Responses so far »

  1. 1

    Kier said,

    hey, girl. thanks for the treat kanina. 🙂

    i really commend you fer being very open minded about these things. and very accepting. for being a really good friend. for that i am happy.

    i miss you, cielo. maybe i miss the times when i used to tell you everything, and the times you told me stuff too.

    i don’t know much. but what i know is, you’re very kind. i hope you stay that way forever.

    so don’t ever change, okay? i love you. stay the way you are now 🙂

  2. 2

    fruitbubble :3 said,

    loooove. :3
    princess.. 🙂
    nyaahahahahahah!!! O_o!!

    habbie balemtimes!!! yey!!!
    kalimutan na naten ang compaAna kanina.. xD

    etoh lang ang masasabi ko…
    panget ung mga pusa na ginamit!!!!
    kadiri talagaaaa!!!!

  3. 3

    nix said,

    you still owe me a story :))


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