Archive for September 26, 2006

Disappoint…

it’s bad to think way beyond your league… because you may never know if it would come true or it would just make you feel like a fool…

in my case… it didn’t make me feel like a fool.. it just made my heart fall so hard… have you ever experienced like you’re in cloud nine and then you find yourself falling from that cloud and feel as if your heart went down to your stomach? ahaha… it’s not a very pleasant feeling… it’s very awkward.. especially if you’re feeling that way in front of the person who made you feel that way… you try so hard to appear like you’re okay when in fact, you’re not… you just don’t want them to be worried for your sake…

haay.. it’s so hard… when you thought that he could be the answers to your prayers but then all of a sudden.. you suddenly find out that you are thinking a step too far… there are times when i think “it’s so strange he doesn’t show me.. the affection that i need… almost formal.. too respectful…”

well.. you just can’t change the fact that some people are that way… let them be… they know who they are and they know what they are capable of… never fear… ahaha… ok… medyo off topic yung ‘never fear’ na part… hehehe…

well… i can’t say that im okay.. coz i really am not.. there are times when i would find myself crying over something that i myself do not know… maybe it’s because of the huge disappointment that i felt… or maybe i just can’t take the fact that i lost him once more… that i wasn’t able to give him the push that he needed.. all i could do was cry.. but what the heck… crying won’t solve anything.. it would only make things worse.. it would only make you feel more depressed and it would only make the situation much too hard to solve…

“palayain ang isa’t isa.. kung tayo.. tayo talaga…”

anways… sleep na ako.. inaantok na ako…

PS. wag kayong iiyak… yun lang…

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Hurt…

You won’t cry for my absence, I know – You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant…? Am I so insignificant…? Isn’t something missing? Isn’t someone missing me?

And if I bleed, I’ll bleed, knowing you don’t care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you and wake without you there,
Isn’t something missing?

These wounds won’t seem to heal… this pain is just too real.. there’s just too much that time cannot erase… I’ve tried so hard to tell myself that you’re gone… but though you’re still with me.. i’ve been alone all along…

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